Sunday, January 22, 2012

turning 22




Pada 21 Januari 2012 , aku dah umur 22 tahun. Start jam menginjak ke 00.01AM dah ada orang post their wishes kat Facebook for me :)


I am glad and thank you very much for all the wishes everyone. But still I was doing nothing. No celebration at all. On the day of my birthday, I was busying lifting all my stuffs from college back to my sis's home. All by myself as everyone, my big bro, kakngah and adik semua balik Kedah. Drive sorang sorang to Uitm. The reason why I am staying is that I wanna spend a week of my holiday break here with Borders friend. But still tak keluar keluar lagi .
Back to the day of my birthday, aku makan MekD ja. No interaction dengan orang sekeliling pun. So lonely I tell you.


Yeah I am 22. Not much expectation from this age, just I am hoping to be more mature in every decision I made, to be more focus on what I want and be a better me InsyaAllah. Niat tu dah ada. So sekarang nak tunaikan niat tu je lah. Niat yang dimaksudkan tu ialah berubah dari segi kebaikan. Buka sebelum ni tak baik, cuma nak lagi baik dari baik yang sedia ada. Dah berjalan slowly. Cuma nak boost up lagi dan lagi.
Ada perkara yang perlu dikurangkan, ada benda yang perlu ditambah. Yang perlu dikurangkan tu perkara dunia la kan, yang perlu ditambah tu perkara yang dituntut agama. Apa yang aku harap sangat niat aku ni bukan hangat hangat sat ja la.


24 haribulan ni birthday mak tersayang pulak. Sedih gila tak dapat balik. Tak pa mak, nanti kakcik balik kita celebrate na :D I love you till I die mak ! Ok dah tak nak tulis banyak banyak as tak sedar nanti tears keluar.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Spread the kindness boomerang :)





World can really shines brighter with a simplest kindness everyday. Peace and smile :)

Thursday, January 12, 2012

crush no more ...




I can't talk to you anymore,
it's not that I am mad at you,
it's just that when I talk to you,
I realize how much I love you.
And when I realize how much I love you,
I realize I can't have you,
and that makes me love you even more







- this is exactly how I feel right now,
with someone...








Lagu Rindu








Bintang malam katakan padanya
Aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya
Embun pagi katakan padanya
Biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya



Tahukah engkau wahai langit
Aku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya
Kan ku pasang hiasan angkasa yang terindah
Hanya untuk dirinya



Lagu rindu ini kuciptakan
Hanya untuk bidadari hatiku tercinta
Walau hanya nada sederhana
Ijinkan ku ungkap segenap rasa dan kerinduan






- Kerispatih

Sunday, January 1, 2012

GoodBye 2011 !











Thanks 2011 for everything.
I have been through you with a lot of tears, smiles, sadness, happiness, joyful and fun.
I'll keep the moments in you as a great memories.
Hope for a better life and a better me in 2012.
InsyaAllah.

Amin.

MedicineForHeart # 1




10 things I discovered about myself in 2011





1) People that do not know me usually think that I am serious, so they always run away or rather choose to stay away from me. But 1 thing that I notice, once they start the conversation with me, they would change their perception that once they had, and I suddenly become their best friend to share their problems with. Not including of 'perasan' feelings but it happens quite some times, then how's that make you feel? Just glad :)


2) I think my decision of choosing Multimedia Computing as my degree major is the best choice.
So far.
As I enjoy it the most I guess. Hopefully it will last longer. Hopefully. Amin.


3) Can I include this?...
I cannot trust my crush feeling. It always change every single month. And the latest is, I have a crush on someone. And I dont think this will last until the last semester. Opppsss~~

4) I love coffee. Like seriously. Just in 2011 I drank coffee like it would never end. I can finish a big tumblr that full with any kind of coffee, and I would become a zombie's version of panda.


5) I feel happy by just looking at my dashboard Tumblr :D


6) Dah kurang sikit kot pasal K-pop ? :P LOL. rasanya dah tak terlalu fanatik macam dulu. :D
( I categorised myself as a fanatic one, not as an obsessed kpop lovers, as I define obsess is a term of too much enthusiastic/passion/giving-up-all-your-soul/menangis when you watch your idols won an award/alone waiting every second just to celebrate you idol's birthday,plus with a cake etc. )

The most fanatic things that I ever done is, went to their concerts/fanmeets, and stalking.
I know the limit of mine :) But I love CNBlue . *haipp*



7) Once I had a dream of marrying Lee Jonghyun. *malu* hey that's just a childish one better than you ever imagine of marrying Harry Potter.lol.
Not anymore. ok tipu 50-50. No la. I just being logical and I am in my reality and still sober. Impossible. Kalau tak mati kena ligan dengan batang penyapu oleh mak. *wink*
Lelaki Melayu masih ada ruang di hatiku :D




*but can I still keep this dream on ? herkkk~


8) I discovered that, I still lack of courage+confidence about myself.
Not every single time I have been thinking of giving myself a rest, but it still coming. I need more positive thoughts, and people, please help me .




9) I love cute stuffs. My new addiction.



10) The last thing I discovered before 2011 ends, I started to love One Direction. ayayayayayayaiiii~~~


Liam & Harry ! <3






p/s- for #3, I did some stalking on him ..awww~ shhhhhh~~